This “30 Days of Truth” is making the rounds of the blogosphere.  I saw it over at Garibay Soup first (which is now the beautiful Enchanting Havoc).  I thought it sounded like a neat idea, and a way to examine myself and fill the days when I do not have any posts.  Especially since lately it seems like my life is totally swamped.

I will not be doing the 30 days in succession.  I’ll be putting it in between regular posts and my 365 project which I have finally actually been actively doing (I wanted to wait until I’d done several weeks successively before I started posting).

If you want to take part in this 30 days project (which is my first of several, I found others to do as well) – head on over HERE to find a list of all 30 days.  Some look easier than others, but I’m doing them in order!!  So without further ado…

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Day 01 – Something you hate about yourself

“Hate” is such a strong word, but still I can think of a few things to add to the list.  The thing I hate most is my lack of will-power/ability to follow through.

I’m the person with a ton of ideas.  Projects, crafts, decorating, personal and kids.

I want to better myself – I’m going to start exercising.
I want to better my house – look at these ideas & projects I have in mind.
I want to make these things – look at my pile of supplies in my craft cabinet.
I am so very angry/hurt, I’m going to tell this person exactly how I feel – oh look at my yellow-belly. The chicken-shit runs away from confrontation again.

Unfinished tasks and projects litter my house.  My tummy is still I-had-3-kids-2-in-rapid-succession-loose.  My excuses are vast and varied.  Money, time, I got sick.  My first attempt at prject 365 ended at #7. College was an unfinished joke.

The only thing I’ve seen through is my writing (1 book written, 1 series 2/3 done)…and my marriage (a very important seeing-it-through thing, admittedly).

I hate that part of myself.  The one that doesn’t finish what I start.  That sees everything through to the end.  That doesn’t give up because of fear, failure, or just plain laziness.

Every year I resolve to change and get better.  And every year it comes back and laughs in my face, leaving me back to hating it again and not sure how to rid myself of it forever.