The past couple of years I’ve made huge leaps in discovering who I am, who I want to be, how I want to live.

I want to be me.

Unapologetically ME.

It’s not always easy, though.

Old fears, traumas, habits, and soul blocks are everywhere.

I make a decision for a new Oola goal – and I hide it. I claim I’m keeping it to myself because it’s just for me…but it’s fear. Fear of being mocked. Being told I can’t do it, that I’m “not strong enough” (something I heard about surviving auditions on Broadway…yet years later I became a writer and handled plenty of rejection).

It’s been so easy to slide back into a hermit life during/after the move.

SO much happened. SO much stress. SO much turmoil.

Say bye bye world, hello couch.

I’m trying to push beyond it. To work past those blocks, comforts, and habits.

My word for 2019 is REDEFINING.

I’ve had so much happen into 2019, I can’t help but embody that word in so many ways.

Yet, that old song is easy to sing. To use as a shield. To smile and pretend I’m okay waving the rose in the back of the corps.

I said I was going to stop hiding my true self.

I’m working on it.

I promise.

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(Also, that Oola goal announcement is coming soon…promise. Fitting it into my post schedule. 😀 No more fear)