[flickr id=”6271416484″ thumbnail=”small” overlay=”true” size=”small” group=”” align=”left”]When it is cold and dark outside.
You seek the warmth.
When things seem the darkest.
You look for the light.
Some days the struggle blinds you to the light.
Right now I am stressed.
The new job cuts into my week. I have things to learn and my mind is racing while I’m there with making sure I get things done right. There wasn’t a learning curve so much as sink or swim. I had basic training and was out there. It’s how I like to learn, but it can be overwhelming.
I’m getting over a cold while Angel is getting one (always a panic button issue).
We are still without an official permanent sitter for the kids with my new job. While we’re managing to wiggle through now w/ hubby taking a late lunch daily to watch the kids until Brandon comes home, my in-laws are watching on Fridays until they go down South and my Dad has offered to watch after that for ‘a while’…we need something permanent and set. If Middle School didn’t run a full hour later than elementary (or it was the other way around) we’d be fine. No such luck, though.
We had meetings with Riley’s school several times the past few weeks. Things were not good. We were not happy. Steps have been taken to make things better, but I’m still not completely happy. We’ll see how the next months go along.
Christmas is coming and we are not ready for it. Finances are tight. The new job has started, but we’ve yet to see the fruit of my labor there. We feel like we’re gasping for air, and floundering.
I am always the one that sees the silver lining, but I feel like I haven’t had time lately. For once I’ve been the negative Nellie, tense and short tempered. I know it’s still adjusting to the new job. To the shift in my schedule and my families.
I just want to feel like me again.
Hopefully you all will fall into the groove with your new schedule soon and it will all work out.