by Sarah | Nov 3, 2010 | All About Denver, Crap

For 12 years he survived. All bones intact.
The worst he’d done was cracked his head open once or twice – not one stitch, not one drop of glue, had ever held his flesh together.
Then back in the spring he became a comedic sight. One finger broken on his left hand, two fingers sprained on his right. He couldn’t use either hand, doing schoolwork was a challenge. All of that because his buddy cracked him in the hands with a golf club (on accident). Still, that was minor. The ‘break’ in his finger was in the growth plate. It healed in short order.
This time he isn’t quite so fortunate – although still relatively lucky.
He went on his first serious Boy Scouts camping trip. They hiked for several hours (his pack was 22 pounds), and then would make camp for the night. He went with our neighbor Moe*, who is also one of the troop leaders.
That morning I had a bout of mothers’ intuition. For some reason the thought hit me probably 10 in the morning and my brain screamed at me, “Brandon is going to get hurt today.” I didn’t fully listen, brushed it aside and went about our business…but even Archie says I was “off” all day. It was a ‘sweats’ day all day…I was just ‘eh’.
Then at 9:30PM Archie’s phone rang. My heart stopped, and the second I hear Moe’s voice I was on my feet, rushing to get dressed. I knew something had happened. I didn’t know what or how or why, or even how I’d get where they were, but I was going.
I was talked down from my insanity and eventually (two hours later) Brandon was home. Since he was exhausted and the scouts had come “prepared” (it’s more than just a saying), he crashed and we went to the ER in the morning. A couple hours later we were home with a new brace and sling – because for some reason ER’s no longer cast fractures (even compound ones – luckily Brandon’s was not compound).
A “buckle” fracture of the radius and ulna, a little more severe on the radius (which explains why he can more his fingers better than his thumb). It should heal in about 6 weeks and his cast will come off in five.
But to me it’s a badge of honor for him. He’s always been a tentative boy, careful…and not a ‘man’s man’ type of boy. In the past year he’s started to grow and change and bit by bit he’s becoming more of a man. Cross Country, Scouts, are both steps toward becoming a man instead of the curly-haired boy I remember so well. This cast is a symbol of that change, of him stepping into a world of strength. His handling of the pain has been so much more than it ever has been in the past. He’s growing up. Now he’s got a physical reminder of his steps away from me.







by Sarah | Oct 10, 2010 | All About Denver, Photography, Weekly Winners

Yes, this is my second WW’s post this week. These are my son’s photos. Mine can be found HERE. I know it’s double the work, but please check us both out 😀

All taken w/ Kodak EasyShare C190. For week 10/3-10/9/10
These are Brandon’s photo’s from the photo hike we went on yesterday. He got some amazing photos and all of these are SOOC!
Super Flare

End of flowering





Reflections

Spotlight

Standout

Brandon really kicks butt and takes names when it comes to taking photos. Please leave him some comments to let him know I’m not the only one that thinks so!!!.
That’s all for this week. Head on over to Lotus‘ digs to see more!!
by Sarah | Oct 4, 2010 | All About Denver, All About Me
Day 07 – Someone Who Has Made Your Life Worth Living For
I don’t say it often enough, I get too wrapped up in the terrible teens (the 2’s and 3’s have nothing on the ages from 10 and up). I see too much negative…the lack of common sense in every day activity…..the attitude….the know-it-all-ness…
But in my heart I’ll never forget the days when all I lived for was his smile. Before the days of doctor’s appointments and therapies and struggling to get IEP’s and help our girls needs.
When it was just the two of us.
When his trusting blue eyes and tiny life gave me the backbone I needed. To stand up for him. To make sure he was cared for, and to make sure that he had a good life.
It was because of him that I found my husband (and his dad).
When life took an unexpected turn, I found joy in a set of stunningly blue eyes, a little boy that was quick to smile and laugh. The boy that drove me insane watching Mary Poppins over and over and OVER again (seriously, I want to strangle the uptight, snobby witch).
I need to remember to say it more often.
by Sarah | Oct 1, 2010 | All About Learning, All About Molly, Autism, Cross Country
Earlier this week Archie got a call from the woman we’re working with in Special Services. She has recommended moving Riley to All-Day Kindergarten.
In essence she’s saying “There’s something going on, she does have issues – but we wont’ give you an IEP or diagnosis yet.”
The reasons were….
1) All-Day Kindergarten is for children that “need more attention.”
2) All-Day Kindergarten would give her more time in the day to evaluate her.
3) All-Day Kindergarten would give Riley more time to adjust to her day and settle in before it’s all over.
4) All-Day Kindergarten has a smaller class size – less chaos, more individualized attention.
All valid points. All reasons to go for it.
But then there’s…
1) All-Day Kindergarten lends toward more chances for Fire/Tornado drills (oh won’t that be fun).
2) All-Day Kindergarten means lunch. Riley can’t handle the chaos of snacktime in a classroom – you think she’s going to handle lunch in a crowded cafeteria?
3) She loses her comfort zones – her teacher and her best friend J.
4) All-Day Kindergarten means all day. Means behaving to the best of her ability all day. Means putting all that effort into being good at school – what unholy hell will we be unleashing upon ourselves by asking her to do this?
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Well, we’re taking that risk.
I’d be lying if I said the thought of All-Day Kindergarten didn’t scare me on a number of levels…
But the thought of them having more time to evaluate her and getting this all out of the way is what’s holding me together. I still am not confident in the school’s ability to get this done – but at this point it’s our only hope. With the changes in insurance, getting her evaluated at the hospital is totally not in our pocketbook’s reach.
(And yes, it totally pisses me off that because of sh*tty insurance we have to rely on the school for Molly’s evaluation and diagnosis…and no, the geneticists diagnosis is NOT enough for us to get the insurance assistance we need. I’ve tried it before. We need one from a psych…thus we are dealing with the school…but that’s a totally different post that I won’t write for many reasons.)
by Sarah | Sep 19, 2010 | All About Denver, All About Family, All About Me, Photography, Weekly Winners


All taken w/ Canon Rebel XTi.
For week 9/12-9/18/10
Water Falls


Fish Swim
(Above is Nemo#1)
(and Pingu)
Fish can be replaced
Nemo#1 was “sick” and so flushed “Back to the sea” and so we have Nemo#2:

Hair Curls

Determination Wins
(He got 17th place this time! Moving up!!)

Teamwork is Everything
(The Team Won the Meet!)

Relaxation takes many forms…
At the Park:

With Friends

I Can Be Beautiful
(A lesson in progress, a piece at a time – this is my first piece)

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That’s it for this week. Head on over to Lotus‘ digs to check out other, more worthy entrants!!
by Sarah | Sep 18, 2010 | All About Denver, All About Kennedy, All About Me, All About Molly, Cystic Fibrosis
Day 06 – Something You Hope You Never Have To Do
My biggest fear day in and day out.
I hope I never, ever, have to bury one of my children.
I hope that Brandon, destined to drive in just a few years, finds and uses common sense. That he has the same instincts I did to never use drugs, to not drink until he’s older. That nothing happens to mar is bright future.
I hope that Riley far outlives and outshines me and her father. That none of her issues cause her problems. That she grows to be a proud and strong young woman.
Above all I hope for a cure.
That Angel never has to wait for a lung transplant to save her life. That she doesn’t have to live her days hooked to machines that force breath into her failing lungs. That they find a cure for even her unique a-typical form of this horrible disease.
I never want to bury ANY of my children.
Yet daily I wonder if I will have to.
I hope to the heavens that I won’t ever face that.