by Sarah | Nov 19, 2010 | All About Me, Random
My brain is totally fried, so welcome to random bits of thoughts & feelings…
* On Monday I went to dinner with my good friend from high school. I always LOVE having dinner with her – the conversation is ALWAYS good, the food is always good, the company is always comfortable. This Monday wasn’t so comfortable and it’s all my fault. I wasn’t feeling well, but was SO desperate to get out that I went out anyway. I only had five bites of my DELICIOUS dinner b/c I had a stomach bug and kept getting nauseous. But, we still had a good conversation.
* On Tuesday the sick hit even harder. My entire day was spent on the couch. Dog at my side, Angel climbing all over me.
* Oh yeah, did I mention we’re dog-sitting my parents dog right now? It’s added a certain level of chaos – even though she is a VERY good dog. Amazing how just one more small body in this tiny house turns everything on its head.
* On Wednesday I was SO lucky to be a part of the AMAZING event that the lovely Queen of Free set up for us Indy Bloggers that was sponsored by non other than Verizon Wireless. That means that through the holiday’s I’m sporting a gorgeous little buddy that goes by the name of Droid 2. It really is a beautiful thing that you’ll be hearing more about.
* Have I mentioned that Indy has a network of some of the most awesome bloggers on the planet? In the past month I’ve been privileged to go to two separate blogger parties with some of these incredible bloggers…and every time I see them I’m reminded how lucky I am to be in such excellent company in such a great part of the country. Where all the bloggers really reach out and get together on a semi-regular basis…and a good time is ALWAYS had by all. Whether a small get-together or a big party.
* After I made Emily’s gloves, the Queen of Free ordered a pair (pictured above). I threatened to keep this pair…I loved them so. BUT, on that note…thanks to Emily and Cherie (and a few others) ‘gentle’ nudging I’m hoping to open an Etsy shop after the turn of the year. In the mean time my plate is full with 9 orders for gloves that I need to get done before Christmas! My fingers will be very busy – and need a holiday break of their own 🙂
* In all the chaos, my Christmas pre-baking has taken a back seat. Hoping to get back on it next week.
* Speaking of which, I get to meet HER next week. I’m totally a-quiver in excitement. She is awesomeness wrapped in incredibleness. We shall share coffee and hopefully I will be able to maintain sparkling conversation.
* I’ve been working on a new layout for my blog. Hope to reveal it soon, but I need to do some organizing first…P.S. There will be Ad Space – email me if you’re interested in a block (sarah.cass.rp(at)gmail(dot)com)
* I am purposely avoiding the bad-news topic. If you missed it read it HERE and then HERE. Thank you all for your kind words here and on twitter. First appt is end of December & we’ll have more to talk about then.
* I need business cards. For that I need an official business name (for the etsy shop – preferably tied into my current Redefining Perfect brand). Suggestions?
by Sarah | Nov 16, 2010 | All About Me, Photography
Two pictures from the Indian Summer walk we enjoyed. First is a little shadow play, and then one of my favorite pictures ever…
Shadow Play
In Your Eyes
* Just makes me think of the Peter Gabriel song “In your eyes, I am complete”.
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by Sarah | Nov 15, 2010 | All About Kennedy, All About Me
Yesterday I proudly displayed these pictures as part of my Weekly Winners. One thing I didn’t do was tell the little story behind them. The one that brought me to tears as I was sharing it with my husband.
At the end of our long Indian Summer walk, my little Angel spent the time picking “poofy heads”. After gathering one for her and each of her siblings we moved into the wish making phase of the task.
She pulled them close and took a deep breath. Then she looked over at me and smiled and said, “Mommy, do you know what I’m gonna wish for?”
“No, baby…what?”
“To love you more.”
I’d wish for the same, Angel…but right now it would be impossible to hold any more love in my heart for you, it is so full of love and pride. My beautiful, loving ray of sunshine.
by Sarah | Nov 13, 2010 | All About Me
I hide.
Weekly I’ve been doing this Flip Side meme. Trying to learn to like myself again through these photos. It’s working in pieces…but then I realize I still hide.
No picture goes unless I’m sure it’s my ‘best’ side. I’m either made up, my face is at the right angle, my chin is present (it does like to disappear), my nose isn’t off…and so much more. Hundreds of photos are dismissed.
The real me is never revealed.
When I go out it’s the same. Leaving the house without makeup? Sacrilege. Going out where I will see real people in ‘comfy’ clothes? I did that last week w/ some Indy bloggers and it about killed me to leave the house like that. Best foot forward and all.
But that isn’t always me.
I have more tired, non-made-up, dark-circled, feeling fat days than I do ‘feeling beautiful’. My kids are always going. I am always going. I’m writing, I’m singing, I’m wifing, mothering, sewing, knitting, baking, cooking, doctoring, therapizing, advocating, teaching, learning, crying, laughing, reading and never sleeping.
I have dark circles, they’re partly genetic, partly earned.
I spend days wrapped in a cloak of fear. I spend days bolstered by the shining rays of hope. I spend days being lazy, curled on my couch with my computer and doing absolutely nothing. Then I turn around and spend days cleaning, scrubbing, baking.
I have three kids that beyond their medical issues are SIBLINGS. They scream at each other, beat each other up, then turn around and laugh and play with each other. One minute I’m breaking up a war, the next I can’t stop the smile from their goofiness.
I am tired. I am happy. I am me.
It’s time to stop hiding. Life isn’t always pretty – and neither am I.
But I am real, my life is real.
(Post 1 in a short series about what I, my family, and this blog are and what they will be. I’ve come to a realization over the course of this NaBlo thing this year. My blog needs more substance, more real…and that means I have to face some realities of what I’ve done, my own self-imposed limits that need to be lifted. I also have another short series planned called The Fracture Fallacy…more on that later, though 😉 )
by Sarah | Nov 11, 2010 | All About Me
Sarah turned my own question around on me…so I’m going to answer it 🙂
What do you do to relax?
To answer that I have to take a little copout and say that it really depends on the day.
Most days I get away with some knitting, sewing, writing, or surfing on the net. Once the house is quiet I get my me time. Either with yarn, fabric or the clicking of my keys. If I’m a bit more stressed and ‘in the zone’ I like to write because I can abuse my characters and that’s a great way to vent anger or frustration. If I’m not in the writing zone, it’s all about my yarn and fabric or my friends on the internet.
Then there’s my bathtime. Yup, it’s a waste of water, and the whole ‘baths are gross’ arguments…but there is something about settling into warm water and bubbles. Soaking in the warmth while reading or playing word games. Especially in the cold winter weather, it’s one of my favorite ways to relax.
During the summer, it’s sitting out on the deck with friends. A good glass of wine. Good conversation. Our kids playing together, while we unwind. It’s good stuff.
When it gets really tense, the kids are really on my last nerve my best way to relax is to get away. Hand them off to Archie and go out to window shop. I rarely buy anything (unless I actually have a need), just browse through some of my favorite stores. Scan the (diminishing) fabric choices at JoAnn’s. Wander the shelves of Barnes & Noble. Just get away from the every day.
And those are my best choices to relax.
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I’m still happy to take your questions. Go ahead and ask them here, you don’t have to find the original post to ask a new question 🙂
by Sarah | Nov 9, 2010 | All About Me
Just one this week…so that’s my theme 😉
Feeling Good
* Was feeling pretty this night. That’s pretty rare, so I snapped one.
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My brain is totally fried, so welcome to random bits of thoughts & feelings…
