by Sarah | Oct 11, 2010 | All About Erik, All About Marriage, All About Me
He was the first to ask US on a date. He included my beautiful three year old on our first date. He thought of us before he thought of me. He took us to an appropriate kid-friendly place. He talked to Brandon, he made Brandon laugh. And when dinner was over, Brandon looked at Archie and said, “Are you coming home to see Mimi and Papa?” The deal was sealed…he was special.
I held back, afraid to give up my heart. I couldn’t tell him I loved him…I was terrified of my past repeating itself. But once I was able to make that step, everything fell into place. Engaged and a wedding date planned before we’d hit the six month point. A fall wedding, as I’d dreamed.
There wasn’t a doubt…WE would be married. Not just Archie, and I…but Brandon, too. He asked Brandon permission to marry me, and he had Brandon give me the ring – sending my mother into a fit of tears. The ceremony would involve Brandon, and we’d be announced as a family.
And so we were. Our small family embarking on new territory. Making a path none of us was too sure how to follow. But we trudged ahead and forged it together.
The first year was tough as I pursued roles in Community Theater as well as marriage and mommy-hood. But from there, community theater was put on hold to focus on family.
We’ve had our struggles…financially, and emotionally. But we’re now at six years and stronger than ever.
He’s the one that’s supported me, no matter what my dream or desire. He believes in me when I’m not so sure I believe in myself. He tells me daily that I’m beautiful, or a good wife, or both. He is proud of me as his wife, and as a mother.
So Archie, thank you for eight years of wedded bliss (and miss)…our struggles made us stronger…and your love makes me better.
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*My anniversary is actually tomorrow, but as that’s the day for the Flip Side post, I’m posting this a day early. It’s mostly a re-post of one I made 2 years ago…but it’s still posted with the same heart.
by Sarah | Oct 8, 2010 | All About Me, Crap
Day 08 – Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Middle School.
The bowels of Hell for me.
I was insanely skinny, big ugly pink plastic glasses, braces, and acne.
Perfect fodder for evil pre-teen/teenage girls.
I had 2 close friends. Super close. They both had the same name. We had the “I’m Larry, this is my brother Darryl, this is my other brother Darryl”-type thing going on. We passed notes, to the point where we had a 3-way notebook we would trade back and forth between classes. Every school day someone took it home, every weekend. Our deepest thoughts, our silliest dreams and crushes, our love for NKOTB kept us bound in one spiral notebook after another. It was us against the tides of evil girls out there.
Our circle grew just a little bit. A few other girls became our friends as well. Not the best friends, but they were friends.
Then it happened.
One of my Darryl’s decided that I was the perfect target to bolster her esteem. In a far away town on a class trip (w/ at least 1/4-1/3 of the entire class on it) she managed to break my heart, destroy what little bit of reputation I had, and totally leave our trio of friends in tatters.
Upon our return from the trip out of town my world was shattered. I had one friend left, literally. My other Darryl stuck by me, remained my friend all through the 9th grade when I moved away…and on occasion we’d see each other when I went home…and we’re now facebook friends again.
My middle school life was hell…but in one fell swoop she ripped away what little bit of happiness I had. Some days I think I’m silly for still holding onto the pain…but every time I think about it, the pain is still fresh. A scar that will never heal.
“Darryl” was my friend. One of my best friends. It’s not something I will ever forget.
by Sarah | Oct 5, 2010 | All About Me, Photography
Trying to stick with a theme each week…we’ll see how it goes. This week it’s all about the comfort.
ZEN
*I cannot attest to the owner of the duck
Wrapped in his love
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by Sarah | Oct 4, 2010 | All About Denver, All About Me
Day 07 – Someone Who Has Made Your Life Worth Living For
I don’t say it often enough, I get too wrapped up in the terrible teens (the 2’s and 3’s have nothing on the ages from 10 and up). I see too much negative…the lack of common sense in every day activity…..the attitude….the know-it-all-ness…
But in my heart I’ll never forget the days when all I lived for was his smile. Before the days of doctor’s appointments and therapies and struggling to get IEP’s and help our girls needs.
When it was just the two of us.
When his trusting blue eyes and tiny life gave me the backbone I needed. To stand up for him. To make sure he was cared for, and to make sure that he had a good life.
It was because of him that I found my husband (and his dad).
When life took an unexpected turn, I found joy in a set of stunningly blue eyes, a little boy that was quick to smile and laugh. The boy that drove me insane watching Mary Poppins over and over and OVER again (seriously, I want to strangle the uptight, snobby witch).
I need to remember to say it more often.
by Sarah | Sep 30, 2010 | All About Me, Random
The weather is (finally) getting cooler. The days are getting shorter…
And my brain is wrapped around five million craft projects.
Yup, it’s getting close to Christmas. I’m trying to figure out measurements for the girls for dresses, pettiskirts…trying to knit faster than I type (not even close at this point)…laying out what materials I have, figuring out what I need. What presents are bought and what we still need to acquire.
Christmas is closer than ever. I’m happy that I started to buy presents a few months ago (just a little bit here and there)…and that we only have a few more to get – but as always it’s the pricey ones…and we need new tires this year on the truck (desperately)…and oy. Things always have to happen all at once don’t they?
But I love this time of year.
The colors.
The urge to cook and bake – not to mention the joy I get from the activity. This year I’ve created my own sourdough starter. A living, breathing, growing sponge for bread. I can’t wait to make a batch of it this coming week.
The cool, crisp air that isn’t yet cold enough to freeze my nose off.
Apples.
Pumpkins.
Fall.
It always was my favorite time of year – even when I wasn’t allowed to play in the leaves (sap allergy…yup. Seriously).
Now excuse me while I get back to knitting. I have gifts to finish, you know…
by Sarah | Sep 28, 2010 | All About Me, Photography
These pictures both sort of fit with how I’ve felt all week…out of focus, fuzzy, unclear.
WINE
*no wine was abused in the taking of this photo
FOCUS
*Or total lack thereof
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