by Sarah | Jul 22, 2011 | All About Denver, All About Me, The Teenager
[flickr id=”5888954984″ thumbnail=”medium” overlay=”true” size=”small” group=”” align=”left”]Once upon a time it was us against the world.
There were no secrets.
Lots of snuggles.
Lots of talks.
He told me everything.
Now he’s 13.
When I had to tell him about the neighbors passing, I expected something…words…hugs…tears…
Instead he asked to go for a bike ride.
He didn’t want to deal with it when I was there. He didn’t want to talk about it. He tensed when I tried to hug him. He tried to force back every tear that threatened to fall.
Selfishly I went outside and threw a class-action temper tantrum a kindergartner would be proud of.
I wasn’t mad at him.
I was mad at me.
Where had I gone wrong? Did I not have enough patience? Have I been too focused on the girls that I lost touch with him once they were old enough to survive w/o constant attention? Do I just suck as a mother?
I miss the little boy that truly believed he could tell me anything.
I miss the feeling that he and I have a connection that no one could take away.
The teenage years have just begun.
I already hate them.
I don’t blame him. I don’t blame me (usually).
I still hate them.
I don’t know how I will survive these teenage years.
by Sarah | Jul 20, 2011 | All of Us, Crap, Random
[flickr id=”5959711952″ thumbnail=”medium” overlay=”true” size=”small” group=”” align=”left”]My BFF Jess and her brood have left the building. On Tuesday they started the long drive home to Virginia, and my house was quiet. I didn’t post while they were here much, and I’ve spent the past two days recovering from their presence. It was a marvelous time and we’re hoping to make it an annual thing. Sooo….while my brain is recovering you get random plot points of my life.
* BEST.Birthday.in.YEARS. For the past I don’t know how many years my birthday has sucked. This year was a new experience and joy.
* I got my tattoo!! Full story coming later. In short – I was terrified of the pain. I didn’t hardly flinch. Planning 2, 3, & 4.
* I have a renewed appreciation for Cocksucker TV (as Jess called it…i.e. DEADWOOD). I will always love this show and will always hate HBO for cancelling it. But watching it with my BFF (okay, we only got through half) was so much fun. I knew I’d get her addicted – and I did.
* Her oldest boy (we’ll call him Jack for privacy purposes) and mine were like two peas in a pod. Instant re-friendship and camaraderie.
* There is another #IndyGeekGirls meeting this week. I still haven’t RSVP’d. I guess I should decide if I’m going or not. Since it’s Friday and today is Wednesday. Yup, I’m slow.
* Oh, just remember that my tattoo means I can cross another item off of my 45X45 list. YAY!!
* P.S. In case you didn’t know…that birthday was number 35. Some days I don’t feel anywhere near it…other days I feel sooo much older.
* My wonderful hubby Archie was a marvelous champ this weekend. Crowds and changes in routine can really affect him physically and mentally with anxiety and other issues. This weekend? He was marvelous. He was great with the kids, and he and Jess got along just fine (I was worried, last time he met a good online friend things did not go well). Love him – thank you honey!!!
* My parents got me a gift card to Hobby Lobby. I don’t know how I will manage to choose what to use it on. That store is dangerous.
* Our neighbor across the street passed away. This is the second time this has happened since we’ve lived here (same house, different circumstances). Unfortunately this time it was someone we knew a little better – at least Brandon did. While the gentleman was a bit on the cranky side – he had a soft spot for Brandon and was always really nice. He even helped him stay in a Union tent at our towns Civil War Heritage days and fixed it so he could fire off a cannon. Just a month ago. Brandon is understandably upset.
* I’m ready for school to start. Looking forward to a few hours of quiet a day to get things done. Just a month to go until it’s back to school for the kids – ALL of them!!
* It is HOT. Insanely hot. A/C running ALL the time kind of hot. This does not make me happy. Too hot to do anything but stay inside…and the kids have been on each others nerves for weeks already. Riley & Angel are at each others throats.
And I will stop now…more posts coming ASAP…
by Sarah | Jul 17, 2011 | Photography, Weekly Winners
All taken w/ Canon Rebel XS.
This week my best friend is in town from Virginia to visit. She and her two kids have been hanging out and filling my house with laughter, good cheer, and deep conversation. Despite 3 more people in the house, life has been good, calm and quiet.
And it’s my birthday tomorrow. In honor of my 35th year, I got a tattoo! I’ve wanted one since I was 18 and finally took the leap yesterday.
Old Friends
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This is the life
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Wii!!!
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Wheeeee!!!!
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RUNAWAY!
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THE BEST.EVER.
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Life.
*Computers and Dr. Pepper. What else do we need?
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These next pictures were taken by my BFF Jess because they were of me and my new tattoo. (The color of the ink is actually purple…the lighting in the place was wacky…better pictures coming soon)
Tweeting while Tatting
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Finished
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You can find more pictures over at my flickr account.
That’s all for this week. Head on over to Lotus‘ digs to see more!!
by Sarah | Jul 16, 2011 | All About Family, All of Us
[flickr id=”5941417182″ thumbnail=”medium” overlay=”true” size=”small” group=”” align=”left”]A year and a half ago we went.
Hopping in a car my three kids & I went to Virginia. To meet my best friend, Jess.
Within ten minutes of arrival friendships were formed. For the 5 days we were there the boys were inseparable.
A year and a half later, Jess turned the tables. She has come here.
Though they haven’t talked much.
Time and distance (and groundings) have limited their chances to communicate.
It was like no time had passed at all.
Thick as thieves.
Running and playing.
Chess & the Wii.
Friends.
by Sarah | Jul 10, 2011 | Photography, Weekly Winners
All taken w/ Canon Rebel XS.
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by Sarah | Jul 5, 2011 | All About Denver, All About Erik, All About Home, All About Kennedy, All About Me, All About Molly, Random
[flickr id=”5502918424″ thumbnail=”small” overlay=”true” size=”small” group=”” align=”left”] Brandon left on Sunday.
Boy Scout camp for a full week.
Riley & Angel left this afternoon.
Gone to their grandparents for 2 days.
Archie leaves in the morning.
Off to work. Then to Family Night at Scout camp. Then work the next day.
The house is empty, save for me.
I sit in silence.
I will most likely be cleaning – something I always do when left alone.
During the in-between I will sit and soak up the silence.
Stuck between content and disturbed.
Normally chaos and noise fill this house.
The silence is disconcerting.
But rare enough that I will take some time to enjoy it.
I have a stack of books to read. Trying to meet my 50 books read in 2011 goal (15 read, several partially read).
I have 6 rooms that all need cleaning – one that needs a splash of paint on the trim.
I will complete what I can.
And enjoy some time off.
