Happy new year!  Welcome to 2019, the year of possibility, of joy, of redefining so much.

2019 I went full on with another unusual word – yet not so much when you look at this blog.

REDEFINING.

2019 I’m going to redefine so much.  Our lives, our family, our future.

I’ve struggled with many things in the past couple of years.

The meaning of friendship.

The meaning of peace.

Depression.

Balance.

Too much, vs. too little.

Oola.

My faith.

Being true to myself in every area.

Avoiding the world.

Trying to dive into the world.

My job changing.

My writing (or lack thereof).

My weight.

Myself.

As 2018 began to wind down much faster than it began, I’ve been digging in, holing up, searching myself and my heart.

I’ve found that I can look at all the inspirational memes I want in the world. I can echo mildly in my head their words and sentiments. I can cheer on others as they take steps or find new meaning.

But what good does any of that do if I don’t GO ALL IN.

This year I’m redefining myself. I’m going all in. I’m baring my soul, my true heart. I’m probably going to lose friends, but I’m probably going to gain friends, too. I’m going to be open, honest, wholehearted, unflinchingly myself – even when it’s uncomfortable to do so.

The only way to make true change is to make yourself uncomfortable.  To step outside of the comfort zone.

To document this – I hope to keep this blog going, to keep myself in check, to see the changes as they come.

So, come on 2019 – let’s do this. I’m ready to be redefined.