Tired…

[flickr id=”8275837319″ small=”thumbnail” overlay=”true” size=”small” group=”” align=”left”]2012 has been a very long, and painful year.

Struggles have abounded. Many that you’ve seen, some that I haven’t been able to post about (or started to, but had to stop because we’re not as out of the mess of it as we thought we were).

The pain and struggles have taught me a number of lessons, important lessons.  Lessons I will carry with me into 2013.

For now, though.

For now I’d like a measure of peace.

A few days to breathe.

To not pretend this year has been great, that I’m fine, we’re all fine.

Good things did happen, yes…a few very wonderful things.

But bad things have too – and the bad things have beat me down a bit.

So, just for today.

For today I’m going to submerge in peace.

 

As The Stomach Turns

[flickr id=”8275829697″ thumbnail=”small” overlay=”true” size=”small” group=”” align=”left”]Full of the Christmas Spirit (or is that panic?) – I dove into wrapping presents on Saturday.

I had a huge pile of gifts to go through, a good amount of new rolls of wrapping paper and some old rolls in my trust wrapping paper box that I’d used for years.  I do mean years, it’s an old packing box. Plain cardboard, tall to accommodate the long rolls of paper.

Because I have been using it for years and it’s stored in our only storage area – the garage – some of the wrapping paper in it was well squashed down. Smashed and broken from years of careless tossing into the box.

With all the new rolls I thought it was as good a time to clear out the damaged rolls.

I began pulling them out of the box and realized there was stuff hidden underneath them.  An old (now broken) Easter basket I never used, some Easter faux grass, some Christmas cards, stocking stuffers.  I noticed an odd stain in the corner of the box and cursed that the bugs had gotten into the box like they do everything else in my garage.

And then…

I realized the stain wasn’t bug remains.

It was bird poop.

And the contributing animal lay dead midway through the box.

I have to say I almost threw up right then.

Box went in the trash and I thanked the heavens that I’d had the foresight to buy new wrapping paper.

This year?

I’m spending the money for a proper storage box.

I never.

Ever.

Want to see something like that again.

~shudder~

The Stars Shine Bright in my Life

[flickr id=”8285672590″ thumbnail=”medium” overlay=”true” size=”small” group=”” align=”left”]We’ve had a rough year.

Ups and downs so often it felt like a roller coaster gone bad. But even in the rockiest times, when I feel at my lowest, I’ve got three stars shining bright to bring me back home.  Three stars that overcome challenges big and small and shine in ways I never could have imagined.

Denver, the cross country star that laughs in the face of Cystic Fibrosis by his endurance and speed. That is aiming for the best grades he can (and almost always succeeding) so that he can become a doctor.  Not just a doctor, but a pediatric pulmonologist so that he can help other kids like him and his sister.

Molly, the brilliant little mind trapped behind the limitations of her expressive communication. Every day she’s learning more how to step forward.  She’s making real friends, and living the heck out of life in her own quirky way.

Kennedy, so many little things that could hold her back, but to her they don’t even exist.  She’s my temperamental firecracker, but also the sweetest angel you ever could meet.  Those big eyes and warm snuggles ease away every worry.

They bring hope and light back into my life every moment.  I’m so proud of each of them. Every day.

*~*~*

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With everything from quilts, to bowls, to picture frames – all  made from recycled and sustainable items – you can find some amazingly beautiful items to give as gifts, or to decorate your home.  With one click, you get to beautify your life, and strengthen a country stricken by poverty.  It’s a win-win.

 

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Chaos in the Kitchen

[flickr id=”8276894702″ thumbnail=”small” overlay=”true” size=”small” group=”” align=”left”]I don’t know how I end up doing this to myself every year.

I swear I’ll pick “only a few”.

But then a new recipe pops up.

Or an old favorite is demanded (begged for).

And suddenly dozens of cookies in 5, 6, 7 different variations are accumulating on my table.

I’m on day 4.

I’ve got at least one day left.

If I don’t come out – send in the troops.

Getting Ready {Scavenger Hunt Sunday}

The big day is coming….and all preparations are moving along here in the Cass house.
All taken w/ Canon Rebel XS.

1. Sparkly
A wise woman puts sugar into everything she says to a man, and takes a grain of salt with everything he says to her. ~Helen rowland
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Friendship is like a glass ornament, once it is broken it can rarely be put back together exactly the same way. ~Unknown
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2. Door

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Yes, Virginia, there is a Santa Claus. ~Charles A. Dana
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3. Decorate
A balanced diet is a cookie in each hand. ~Unknown
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Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without. ~Buddha
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4. Stripes
The web of our life is of a mingled yarn, good and ill together. ~William Shakespeare
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Life without love is like a tree without blossoms or fruit. ~Kahlil Gibran
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5. A Few of My Favorite Things
If ballet were easy they’d call it football. ~Unknown
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If there ever comes a day when we can’t be together keep me in your heart, I’ll stay there forever. ~Winnie the Pooh
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You can find more pictures over at my flickr account.

Scavenger Hunt Sunday is run by the beautiful Ashley. Head on over to see more Hunters.